hmmm

So I saw my Dr. today.

The hospital I am at (and took me months to get in at) is a low risk hospital. If I choose a vbac I would have to go back to the city hospital instead (boo). All well and fine though in the long run, does it really matter.

Anyways after talking to him and doing some reading I am a little afraid of the decision. I would really rather try the VBAC. I think it would be better for my kids and easier on me. However the risks are so great. I only have 20 months between my first 2 sections and there will only be 18 months between Sam and this one. Also add in my appendectomy I had last may. My risk is pretty high.

I am thinking of seeing if I can get in with my Dr. here in the city to see what she thinks about it and calling a LD nurse I know.

The thing I really needd to keep in mind either way is that the whole goal of this is to go home with a healthy baby and a healthy mom. In the end it doesn't matter how.

Opinions.

This is my disclaimer. I will make up my own mind.

Now here is the question on which I would like some input. VBAC. I have been thinking a lot about it recently. Not because I have a problem with C-sections. My first one was great my second one was fine.

Here are the reasons I am thinking of changing my mind though.

Recovery - It is a much faster recovery the natural way. I will have 3 kids and I am a little panicked about how I will take care of them all especially when Trevor will be gone so much. My Mom is 4 minutes away but still, can I really put that much on her (AGAIN) that for 2-3 weeks she has to take care of all 4 of us.

Moving - This is all related to recovery I guess, but if I feel better and can get back on my feet quicker then moving cross country will be that much easier. Really not a big thing because I will have months before I move but it is all kind of connected.

The drugs - the morphine messes me up.

Reasons to stick with the plan and do the C-Section.

I know what I am in for- I am not a person who likes change. I like to have things the same. I don't like change. I know what my day will be like I know what to expect.

I know when and where and how long - there is somthing about knowing the day, the time, and that it will take 15 minutes.

The fear - The worst part of the c-section for me is the needles (epidural and IV) so I know that that is the worst part. the worst fear of the day, the worst pain, I know that it is it. I am a WIMP. I don't think my body can deal with ... yeh ... that. I am afraid of how much it will hirt and how scary it all is, and I am afraid to have to go through all that and that there is still a chance I could end up on the operating table and have the C-section anyways. why not just skip the middle and go to the end.

Anyways there it all is. I am going to see if I can get in with my Dr. this week to talk about it. And I hate to say it but even if you all thing I should attempt the VBAC I quite possibly will just do the c-section anyways. I just really wanted to know what you all think.

And if there is anyone out there who has done it... opinions please

Birthday Finale

We finished celebrating my birthday last night.  First we went and ate at Cattle Baron with Fred and Ashton.  That restaurant is amazing.  Friday night at 6:30 no waiting, amazing service and even better food.  Then we went to go see Wolverine.  AWESOME!!  I loved it.  True comic readers will of course find faults with it but as someone who just enjoys the movies I thought it was great.  I wanted to come home and watch more X-Men but was way to tired.  What a great night

Spoiled Rotten

I have been spoiled absolutely rotten. It is my birthday next week. I got my present early though because we were in the States for a wedding and Trevor told me what I was getting and let me pick the specifics.

He took me to my favorite shoe store, (the only place I ever buy shoes unless forced) and let me get whatever I wanted. I ended up with 4 pairs, but one was flip flops so they don't really count right. I am saying that I NEEDED two of them. So that leaves me with one frivolous pair. I use to be this bad with purses too but carrying a diaper bag for 3 years has somewhat cured me of that one.

The big thing I got that pushed it all over the top is this.


I cricut expression. Eeeeeeeee!! I have been drooling over it for years. I love it. He let me pick a few cartridges and a bunch of vinyl. I can't wait until we get in the new house and I can set up my scrapbooking and sewing in the basement so that I can really start to use it. I play with it at night when my kids are in bed so that they aren't climbing all over me and it.

What a lucky girl I am. I have big plans for my house and things I want to do. 3 weeks will not come quick enough.

I will post more later about our trip to Wyoming.

hmm

Sam is feeling much better today. He puked quite a bit and I was up throughout the night with him, but he his happy playing and talking and back to his normal destructive self again. He isn't to happy with the diet of plain soda crackers and apple juice I have him on but that's life. I will be honest I kind of liked having a day of just cuddling.

One of my least favorite things about pregnancy is the unreliability of my feelings and my judgement. I get very emotional. I went to RS activity last night. I was feeling pretty good. It had been a long day but I was out of the house, dressed, make up on, excited to be there. One of the Ladies turned around and looked at me then said "Sister Smith you look very tired today" "uhhhhhh yeh". In my mind I wanted to say something like "well sister you look ......... today" enter any number of mean comments in the blank. Truth be told yes I was tired, but what mom isn't. Kinda hit just all wrong. I was so hurt and taken aback. I don't know how I would have felt if I was my normal self, but my pregnant hormonal self was angry.

Lets just add that the sister who made the comment is the same sister who asked me to do play group. Hormonal Ashley is all up in arms, but I am working on it. Blogging helps me vent and relax, look at it from different angles. You guys are my therapy.


Anyways I got up today, got showered and dressed. I am cleaning my house and have plans for baking. Today will be a good day.

Lilies are my Favorite

I LOVE fresh flowers, as I am sure most do. I think that most guys think that buying flowers has to be a big thing, the expensive bouquet or the roses and such. I have made it a point to point out cute flowers I like. Small potted plants at the grocery for less than 5 bucks. Well Trevor picked these flowers out for me the other day and I love them. He found them at Home Depot and they are starting to bloom, so I thought I would share.

Bread Machine

So I have decided I would like to get a breadmaker. Trevor LOVES homeade bread but I think it is too much of a hassel and takes to much time on my own. So I think this could be a solution, put it all in and then get bread. SWEET. I am just wondering if anyone has one that they like or if anyone knows what are good brands and what aren't. I don't want to buy somethig cheap and have it be no good, but I don't want to break the bank on this either.

Things I enjoy

So I added a counter to the bottom of my blog for "So You Think You Can Dance" Mostly because I forget when it is on and am always sad, usually I can catch a rerun of a missed episode but this way I have a reminder. I am cheering for 3 teams and don't know who I like the most. I like Chelsie and Mark, Kherington and Twitch and Katee and Joshua. I am also excited that "Breaking Dawn" is coming out i 25 days. WOOt. Yes I am addicted to "Twilight", You either love them or you don't... and I do. I read them in a week the first time and now I am reading them again trying to obsorb more of it, but I find I only want to read my favorite parts. I am also excited for "Midnight Sun", Edwards version of the first book but that one is still in the works. I had a friend ask me about "The Host" so I might have to put that on my list of books to read. It is funny, I forget how much I like reading until I am actually doing it. Then I can't stop. Anyways that is all for now. I can't find my battery charger for my camera. BOO!!

viruses, surgery and a happy birthday

We have had an interesting run at it lately. 2 Saturdays ago we noticed Elizabeth had a little rash, not knowing if it was chicken pox, allergies or what er took her into the clinic... strep. So she was on antibiotics for the last week. The week passes and we decided to throw her a birthday party. We spend the morning at the zoo and then take her to my parents house and let her play in the sprinkler. the rash comes back worse than ever. AHHHHH. So we are back in at the clinic. Well not strep but rotavirus. Spreds like a cold and really not that bad except that once it isn't contagious you develop a rash that gets worse when you are out in the sun. And we had her out in her bathing suit. So we are now homebound for the next two weeks with no outside time so that this thing will go away. Happy Birthday Lizzy.

The day after we took Lizzy into the clinic for the first time I was booked for surgery. Rogue iud. Sunday morning 9:30am we get the call to go in because they could fit me in. Monday morning 3:00am I finally go in (talk about giving someone time to freak out). Not to mention that Trevor was taking his first insurance exam monday morning. (Poor guy, I sent him home at midnight not knowing when I would go in.) Well of course nothing can be even that easy. Condensed version I ended up having one of my tubes and my appendix taken out also. So with 5 IV marks, bruses all over my torso, 3 small cuts from the scope, two days recovery I was finally sent home. This was suppose to be a 4 hour stint in the hospital. Bah. But at least my nurses were great this time. Let me add that nursing Sam for those two days was interesting but we made it through without having to give him formula (great nurses and wonderful parents).

Even with all of this going on though, we actually did have a wonderful birthday party. We had close friends over to my parents for a BBQ and cake. Lizzy played out side all day (her favorite thing). I tried and tried to get some pictures of her and Trevor got a few good ones to. In showing her age you call her name to look at you and she looks the other way. Drives me nuts but is strangly cute as can be. She is such a sweet little girl. Even when she is so sick she has been happy and wonderful. I can't believe that I have been a mom for 2 years. I am excited for this next year what big mile stones, talking and potty training. She has so much personality. Here are some of my favorite developments.

She will stand in the middle of a room and throw a ball up over her head. Then she puts her arms out and say "whered it go??" then she laughs and laughs "There it is!!" She will do this 20 times.

She will look at you and say "Ready" then she launchs the ball at you.

She can count to 10 in english and spanish with her Dad. I don't hink she really knows what she is doing but she will say the words.

We have been working on when you ask her how old she is she will say "dos"

She loves to be chased and to chase you. We will run the circut around my parents house hiding and playing.

When she gets tired she get really busy, try to keep going, so cute to watch.

I love my baby girl she keeps me on my toes

So I did the Quiz of how many people in the USA have your name there were 4,851 with mine. Now compared to a couple of cousins who have done it who had 3 and 1 I am feeling a little over run with people with my name, but I was expecting it.

I can't believe it!!

I got a letter in the mail yesterday at my parents house. It was addressed to Ashley Nicole Craig. When my parents called to tell me about it they were laughing their heads off. I was called for JURY DUTY!! BOOOO!! I can't believe it, seriously. I am hoping I won't get picked because I am nursing a 3 month old every few hours. Wish me luck.

Slacker on Strike

So I had gone on a blogging strike, don't know why, but I am glad to say it is over.

A lot has happened since I last posted

Trevor

Has finished his semester and got a student work visa and will be working for volker for the summer doing gardrails. But the more EXCITING NEWS is that in September he will start work as a STATE FARM AGENT. WOO HOO. After 6 months in ther application process he was 1 out of 300 that was hired to start in the fall in our area.

Elizabeth

Is as cute as ever. She has started to talk, or she would be talking if she wasn't so stubborn. She will say words for a day or two and then after that she will just smile and nod when you try to get her to say it. She has also discovered sharing. It goes all the way from sharing her blankie with Sam

to sharing mini marshmallows with strangers at the bank.

Sam

Is growing and growing. Can we say CHEEKS.

He is getting pretty cute now and loves to coo and smile. Can't help but love him.

Me

My allergies have been trying to slowly kill me. Runny nose bloodshot eyes the works. and I cut my hair. I don't have a good picture of it but I got bored it is just above my shoulder. The cool part is that Trevor cut it for me.

So other news and recent events are that we have moved out of my parents house. We are now renting a little town house and we are mostly unpacked. Just have to organize the junk in the basement, old childrens clothes and such. We just got home from Wyoming.

Joel, Glenda and the boys did the marathon road trip. picked up Jacob from the airport drove through the night here to bless Sam. Then the kids and I packed up and drove back with them to spend the week. Trevor flew in Saturday night and I spent the day in Utah with him then we went back to Wyoming for Jacobs homecoming and we drove back Sunday night. It was really fun, the highlight for me was that all 5 brother and I went to the country dance on Saturday. It was a blast. Elizabeth gave us so many funny stories throughout the week. She got her first scraped up knees, played hide and go seek with Papa (would have been nice if she had told him they were playing) and entertained everyone.

Recently

So I have been doing various paperwork lately. Since the immigration is finished I suddenly find myself filling out tax returns, child tax credit forms. Also Maternity forms, subsidized housing and various others are all coming up. It is funny though. None of it ever seems that bad because it is all for my benefit. It is so nice to live in a country where they pay you to have kids rather than robbing you for having kids. In the states you just wanted to ask them to pull a gun and rob you properly, that way you could have a little more remorse and a much better story. Man it almost makes it seem worth having more kids with all the benefits up here, mind you I only said almost. Can I just say I love Canada.

Otherwise things are still on the slow path. We are going to grandma Nelsons for Family Day. and I have one more week of work. I don't know wether I go into labor early or hope that I don't so I can get more hours. Lizzy is still a blast. It is funny I always thought my Dad was really weird for not loving little babies and loving little kids more, and big kids more than that, but it seems to be true, kids are more funt he older they get. Mind you thinking about having a little baby again is really nice.

Still no decision on the name front, it is kind of freaking me out. We had Elizabeths name picked at 2 months pregnant, here I am with less than two weeks and no clue. Nothing seems right. Things seem to plain or to trendy or just don't seem to mesh. We will see, maybe his name will be baby forever.

Trevor is doing good at school. He just got finished his mid terms. He works so hard. I just have to remind him that it will pay off one day.

Hope everyone is doing well.

The Mumma

So I finally took pictures of "big" me. I swear I am as big now as I was in the end with Elizabeth and I still have almost 4 months. Sick. I don't like to document pregnancy but I am entering a contest and needed a picture. So here I am.